桜花録

I'd been busy to open my club for about 3 months. And beside of that, my private had changed a lot. Because of him.
Some PPL say that the love which was born in summer would be ended soon with the hot season.

Also most of my friends think that he and I started our relationship during this summer.
But it's not true.

I met him last October. It was a couple of the day before my wedding. I would got married with another guy at that time. And this guy called Dragon said he had lost his love some weeks ago.

After my wedding, I wouldn't log in SL for about a half of the year. Because my hubby dislike that I log in SL and play it. He thinks SL is just for ppl who want to get their lover there or so. I thought I had to follow him to show him my love. It's not so big problem for me and I don't need to play SL so much if I can talk to him everyday, I thought.

But a day by a day and a week by a week..........................

I found I had been lonely and hadn't get any time to have date with him. When I and he were in SL, we could go to so many beautiful places and could dance, talk, watch nice shows, drink some wine at the cool bar and so on.

But I realized I felt " I am a just his pet."

All I could do is just keep myself in Skype and waiting for his IM for a all day long.
I decided to be back to SL to keep myself happy and told him, "If we don't come to play SL, we can't keep our love. It was the only one way for us to meet. We were living in such a long distance."

I'd been waiting for him everyday. I thought someday he would log in and play with me. Then he logged in SL to play with me maybe once or twice a week. But only 30 minutes or so in each time.
We could dance and talk in SL. That was the only few chance for me to be in his arms.

Someday in this spring, I met the guy who I met before my wedding again. Now I forgot when was the date and where it was but I remember we could had a good time to dance and talk for almost all the night. We saw sometimes and talk together after that day but suddenly he stopped come to see me. The Dragon got a new GF, I thought. And it's true.

I felt I lost something little. But still that time, I'm married in SL and wanted to believe that my hubby loves me and I love him. I did not want to believe something bad would happen to us.

Even how much I missed my hubby and waited for him long time he wouldn't log in SL but wanted to keep me in skype and check my life.

Abruptly, I saw that I'm losing my love to him- in fact I hate him.

Maybe it was the end of the July or the beginning of the August, the Dragon came to see me again. I said congratulation to find a GF but he said he lost her and feel so lonely.
I thought maybe there is a good girl to be his GF in my friends. I tried to introduce them each by each to him. I just wanted to him to be happy because he is such a great guy and I didn't want to see my friends' tears anymore. Most of my friends have some heartbreak stories in SL as he and I do.

I did not think that I would be able to be his GF even I was already divorced in SL. My ex-hubby started to log in SL to check my relationship suddenly. And it made me so mad and disappointed so much. Just he does not want to lose something he got. I feel he is just a poor guy who does not know anything about what is the love.

Someday, the Dragon asked me something and it was so strange question for me.

Just he asked me," Will you be with me forever?"
And I answered him, " I won't be away from any of my friends. I don't want to see tears any more."
Then he asked me again, " I need someone who loves me so deep and I found it is you."

This summer, I got some good memories.
Also this summer, I lost something that I loved.

Then at last, I found someone who I need. Both of us had hard days but because of these bitter memories, we could find the truth of the love, I feel.

I needed to grow to be enough strong to keep our love.

The real love can be in strong heart.

Now I am strong enough to be loved by him.

Our Second Life has just started.
Thank you.